I haven’t written in here but I really need to vent. It all deals with Nod wanting for us to do some stupid oath to make sure we aren’t lying to each other. There are ways to handle that type of suggestion, and in my opinion he could of gone by it an entirely different way. You don’t tell everyone, “How do you know I haven’t been lying to you this whole time?” And he continued to show ways we should mistrust him. Then for some reason I’m supposed to trust him and do this oath? Really? I really should start in the beginning.
I should of known to keep an eye on him since he mentioned he wasn’t part of the party. So why were you with us this whole time? The majority of us are trying to become pirates, why join if you don’t have a similar goal?! You most likely have another agenda going for you. If it’s not becoming a pirate, what the hell is it? Hell we risk our lives for each other. I can’t count the amount of times I was close to death. Hell, I died! That’s a horrible thing to think about. But to think I’m standing the frontline for a douche who doesn’t consider himself with us. That’s insulting.
Another thing, you “save” our lives and say that we “owe” you? Who the hell are you? We are shipmates, pirate brethren, party members, you get the gist. We do that shit for each other. Kun-We and myself stand the frontline so your pussy ass doesn’t get hit and I “owe” you?
Then all of a sudden you remind us you aren’t part of us. You ask us why we even trusted you. You ask us “How do you know I haven’t been lying the whole time?’ And you do a lovely parlor trick with the coin and basically say looks are deceiving and giving us more reason not to trust you. Then you want us to do this “Eladrin ritual” to basically let anyone know who is lying? Really? Oh and all this “I don’t lie, I speak mistruths.” THAT’S THE SAME THING!!! “Mis” means not. NOT truths. Those are lies!!!! You and your pretty word play. One thing I was taught is to beware the ones with the pretty wordplay. They never tell the truth. The always deceive. Why else would they skirt around? Be upfront, so everyone knows where you stand. Even, if the ritual actually does let everyone know who is lying. How do I know your pretty word play won’t work around the ritual. Leave out a few things or even not say a thing. The greatest lie, is a lie untold. So how is this fool proof? How would I know you aren’t gonna screw around with your “mistruths.”
With all this “I‘m not part of the group“, “You owe me”, Don’t trust me, but really trust me,“ I “only speak mistruths“… I’m just insulted. That’s the biggest reason why I won’t do the ritual. I am insulted. We know each other for a relatively small time, but we would die for each other. (And we have). And you pull this bull shit. I’m incredibly insulted. I don’t think I can forget this.
Now, if you were a normal person and said that you’ve had problems with trust in the past. Your trust has been broken by people you truly care for, then that’s something different. Then I wouldn’t mind and would of done the ritual. But you didn’t say that! Suldren had to make up that excuse for you.
Now this leads me to Suldren. My dragonborn brethren. I could chalk up our argument to being stubborn dragonborn. But some things he said can not be forgotten. He said if I was a true dragon born, I wouldn’t have this problem. Insult my loyalty and say that I’m prejudiced to Eladrin. You and I both know Suldren, we should of fought then and there, but I kept my calm or kept the small amount of it I had not to stab you. Before our argument, I thought you were a great wise dragonborn. I thought it was an honor to fight along side of you. You were a great leader, but the shine is off. You can try to get it back, but those words you said won’t be forgotten. I will say it was said in the heat of the moment and I pray to ALL the gods, you don’t slip up again. If I don’t want to do something, you should take my word for it, and not question my loyalty or say that I’m being a baby about it.
I know you were trying to be a leader but do you have jump each time Nod says something. Whatever quirky thing he wants done, you’ll do it. You don’t really question it, you just do it. Nod has to learn how to interact with people because he won’t survive in the world. It’s ok for him not to get his way. He’s a big boy and he should deal with it. If he pulled the shit he’s done with any other group, he’d be one dead Eladrin in the belly of sea. You can’t please all the people, all the time. In our group, I believe Nod is the only one making requests. What’s next? Everyone give a part of his soul so we can be a better “team?”.
I was very happy the Kun-We joined my side. I was afraid I was going at this alone. I don’t know why he joined, but I’m glad. I believe he’s just a simple guy and just wants to be with the sea. He probably doesn’t want to be entwined in this fairy magic. The more I think about it, I think he just had my back, just for the sake of it. We are the frontline, we fight shoulder to shoulder, figuratively speaking of course, and he saw I needed help. No matter if I was fighting a losing battle he joined in anyway. Pirate brethren. Got to thank him for that.
I feel a lot better now with that off my chest. Hope you move past this crap and go back to what I’m truly here for. To travel the seas and become the best pirate I can be.